Hello peeps....
Not sure if anyone's reading this blog of mine. Kita kan popular...NOT! Naaaaa.....actually, i'm a very2 shy person. I'm afraid of being judged by people from my writings. I guess i have a bad case of low self esteem. I wish I didnt have it. You see..having this 'disease' ...cewahhh...sounds serious je kan...anyway, having it has pervented me from publishing my writings in journals etc...being a phd holder, I am expected by others to write, publish, write some more, publish some more....(hey...ingat orang takde kerja lain ke nak dibuat...)...And the dreaded question is being asked "Dah berapa articles u publish in what journal...blablablablabla...???". Macam le kita ni terra bebenor...Well, being asked this "question of the year" you might say, makes me wonder, do I exude a certain kind of aura that makes people think that I am so good in writing and getting published???? Please...you guys are putting me under a lot of pressure....!! I need a breather from the 3.5 years of gruelling phd work. I think I may need that long too to recover. And I also think that my head is permanently damaged...get it? P.H.D = permanent head damage! Sometimes, I would forget what i just said a mere minute ago! But when you think about it again...(bila dah sedor le)...pressure can be good too...betul? tak betul?....Many people I've seen work better under stress. but in my case.....dont seem to work better, stress or no stress (Hrmmmmffff....see the pattern here? Did'nt I say that I have a bad case of low self esteem?) I think what I need is someone to tell me that I'm good and that what she or he says is believable. So, if anyone's reading this.....am i any good or otherwise?
p/s: Tapi, kalau invited to a red carpet event like in the picture.....okey aje!!!
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